Been months since I last logged on to my blog. I had almost forgotten i have a blog until today when my big sis cum colleague mentioned about reading my post. Haha...and i almost forgot about my blog address when i tried to log in earlier. LOL

Throughout the past few months, there isn't much high or low i can say. And, I am glad that I have time for work and play. Sometimes tend to feel moody or sad on some occasion, but try to think positive on the good side and enjoy wherever possible. 

I am always trying to think positively (although sometimes i think negatively), and hope all my friends will too.

I am really angry today. Angry until i raised my voices at a colleague. Imagine getting accused by him on something which was totally not my fault and further more, i was not involved in the email loop (which was what another colleague mentioned) previously. If he had asked me or wrote email to me personally, i would not have been so angry. The accusation on something i didn't do was already a big issue to me, what made it worse was that he cc the email to colleagues not within local plant and requested me to provide an explanation for a mistake i didn't even make. For someone who work with me, they will know that i seldom or won't make this mistake. However, other colleagues outside may think likewise. They do not know me well so they might mistaken that i make the mistake. I really cannot understand why he always act like his the boss and demand explanation. And please, shouldn't he find out who the correct person is.

This is not the first 'argument' i had with the same colleague. Sometimes i help him with some small issue but yet he doesn't seem to appreciate. Anyway, he's not the only one. And i think i will not care so much. For work related, i will do my part. Outside of work, i do not think i will like to interact with some people.

Today was not a good day for me. Since Monday, i had been flaring up at work. Just couldn't stand the workload and some people that i work with. Why can't those people understand?
Due to all these frustrating stuff, my mood became bad. I couldn't control my anger and flared up. And almost blew up a friend relationship. Thankfully, we make up again. Sigh...hope tomorrow everything will be better.

Today is a terrible working day. Before i could sat on my office chair in the morning, i already got 'chased' by my boss and colleagues on the delayed shipment. Sometimes other people' fault became my responsibility. For days, i had been trying to get update for this issue but yet, no one seem to know. Responses from some people made me think that they actually thought i did nothing. What can i say? All i can say is that people who think so are of higher ranking...our effort are hard to be seen by them. I am not only dealing with one stuff ok...got other things to handle as well. =S
Anyway...the delayed issue got settled by afternoon but crazy stuff just keep coming.

My favourite day of the week is here...have to enjoy my weekend without the frustrating work.

I am trying, trying...but seem so disheartening...

Is already May...half of 2012 going pass just like that.

Busy working every day...sometimes there is nothing interesting at night except for some badminton or dinner session with friends and colleagues. But able to relax at home can consider a nice thing too.

Not much achievement for the past few months...except taking music exam (and yes, i passed but only just passed)...finally upgraded to grade 6. Yeah!!! 2 more grades to go...but is getting tougher. =D

1 thing on my mind had been settled few days after my previous post. The other still pending because of my lack of courage. When will i have the courage to do so? Hmm...

There was no music lesson yesterday and together with my friends cum sisters, we went to try out something interesting. Haa...can say a good experience and also a nice memories :p

Back to work tomorrow...so boring...

February 2012 is coming to an end soon. Sometimes really don't know what i am doing all these while. I am trying not to worry too much, not to imagine too much, not to bother with trivial stuff and trying to control my anger but doesn't seem to succeed.

Realised i had been unable to control my frustration recently...maybe all these while, although i still looks the same but my attitude towards some things or situation have changed. I do hope i am changing to be a better person, not one who get detest by people. Sad to say, today i flared up in front of my colleagues. I don't like to do that...so i will try to change for the better. Lesser frustration will make one happier & healthier???

2 things are on my mind now...to go for it or not is a hard decision for both. But i guess i am better prepared for the first one...and wishes for my success. As for the second one, i will just take it easy. =)